What an Awesome Breakthrough.

What an awesome night this has been. God's sooo good!

I've just come back from a service at Steve Hill's church, Heartland. They hold their College and Career services on Thursday nights, called "One Voice" and God showed up through some awesome men and women of God.

At first when I got there and the worship started I had the hardest time, but then I realized God was doing something in me. I've been hitting the brick wall in my finances for the past several months and lately it's gotten sooo bad that I have nothing left at the end of the month. I kept loosing ground and I couldn't explain it.

But tonight, God brought me to the place of total abandonment into His trust. God has been taking me to various scriptures about total trust in Him, and tonight I was asked if I had nothing to show for all my hard work, could I still be happy to trust Him and be faithful in spite of it all.

Man, it was hard!

But now I know that that is exactly what He wants. He wants me to give Him everything even if it means I'm left with nothing! And then to do it again, and again.

Listen to this wonderful promise of faithfulness and provision from the Son of God, "So I say to you, Take no thought for your life, about food or drink, or about clothing for your body. Is not life more than food, and the body more than its clothing? See the birds of heaven; they do not put seeds in the earth, they do not get in grain, or put it in store-houses; and your Father in heaven gives them food. Are you not of much more value than they?" (Matthew 6:25-26 BBE)

This is what got me from these passages; Jesus said of the birds, "they don't sow or reap; they don't store up; but God makes sure they have food" This is some radical stuff that Jesus is talking about. This is a level of living that isn't for the casual Sunday service church goer.

Jesus often said, "he who has ears to hear." This road is narrow, and few find it. I'm seeing something so un-natural that it's Super-natural in the way He's calling His disciples to follow Him. You can't do what Jesus says apart from Him. It will require His help and enabling to do this. What we see as Christianity today is nothing close to what He's planned for His church.

Oh God, help us to get these blinders off our eyes!

-Selah